Music to My Ears

Frequently over the past year, when consumed with grief, I sought comfort in words written by strangers...Lyrics that somehow spoke directly to my heart and resonated deep within my soul. I love that about music, the freedom of interpretation that allows you to feel as if a song was composed for you, your life, your situation...Here are a few of the songs I listen to often, the lyrics that stand out the most, and why I fell in love with the words...

Never Alone - Jim Brickman/Lady Antebellum (link)
My sweet sister shared this song with me shortly after our miscarriage...it is the one I listen to at max volume, allowing it to drown out the sound of my tears, while praising God for never leaving my side.
...
I have to be honest
As much as I wanted
I'm not going to promise
The cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fear surrounds you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone...

Never alone...Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't good-bye
My love will follow you
Stay with you
Baby, you're never alone...

My Prayers - Women of Faith Worship Team (link)
(click on the play arrow next to song #4 to hear a clip of this incredible song)

In June of 2008 I created a slideshow for my sister's high school graduation and fell in love with this song, as it so adequately depicted my prayers for her life...As I was driving to work one day a couple months ago, this song began playing. In addition to hearing the words of my prayers for my little sister, I heard my Savior's prayers for me...

May the sun wake you every day
With sounds of life and words of praise
That love is here to stay

Enjoy each moment as it comes
Always remember where you come from
Never be ashamed
And may you learn to just let go
When it's out of your hands
And find peace down every road

*Chorus*
I know, I know, I know that you wonder
What your tomorrows hold
And I know, I know, I know
Down whatever road you may go
My love is there
These are my prayers

May you find friends who you can trust
Don't be afraid to fall in love
Cause love is the one thing
That's sure as the stars are gonna shine
Don't ever leave your dreams behind
Stand up for what you believe

And take the time to see the good
It's everywhere
And find your passion
Live your truth

*Chorus*

Every night I pray
Every step you take
Brings you closer to
All I've hoped and all I've prayed for you
All I've prayed for you...

Closer to Love - Mat Kearney (link)
One day while driving in the car, this song began paying on the radio. My husband quietly said it reminded him of us, and as he sang these words to me, my eyes filled with tears as I imagined the day we will finally rejoice in the birth of our child... "we're gonna get there soon"...

She got the call today
One out of the gray
And when the smoke cleared
It took her breath away

She said she didn't believe
It could happen to me
I guess we're all one phone call from our knees
We're gonna get there soon...

And don't apologize
For all the tears you've cried
You've been way too strong now
For all your life

I'm gonna get there soon
You're gonna be there, too
Crying in your room
Praying Lord come through
We're gonna get there soon...

Cause you are all I've been waiting for
For all of my life...
We're gonna get there soon...
Pull me closer to love...


One Day You Will - Lady Antebellum (link)
This song is a wonderful reminder that not all moments will feel as devastating as the initial days, weeks and months after our loss...that there is hope...and that we are, indeed, traveling the path God intended. As painful as it may be, He knows the purpose of our journey and is leading us to the destination He has had waiting all along.

You feel like you're falling backwards
Like you're slipping through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back

You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can't see it now

*Chorus*
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on
Every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, You'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be

I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will...

You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here, anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear

You're just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you're down to you last breath
And you don't know it yet

*Chorus*


I Run to You - Lady Antebellum (link)
This song makes me smile...a genuine ear to ear grin! I am so incredibly blessed to be married to the most wonderful man on earth. Despite the grief we've faced this past year, we continue to find solace in each other's arms..."Our love's the only truth, that why I run to you..."

I run from pain
I run from prejudice
I run from pessimists
But I run too late

I run my life
Or is it running me
Run from my past
I run too fast
Or to slow it seems

When lies become the truth
That's when I run to you

This world keeps spinning faster
To a new disaster
So I run to you
I run to you, baby

When it all starts coming undone
Baby you're the only one I run to
I run to you

We run on fumes
Your life and mine
Like the sands of time
Slipping right on through

Our love's the only truth
That's why I run to you