So, for now, because I am currently unable to plan a pregnancy, design a nursery, and deliver a baby, I try to occupy my time planning ways to distract myself from the reoccurring monthly heartache we continue to endure. And although I am admittedly angry and bitter about our unpredictable journey, I'm grateful for the moments of true joy we've had this year, and quite possibly appreciate these memories even more than I would have if life had been different...
April 2009
Ben's good friend and college roommate Stu came to visit! We hadn't seen him in 8 years...but it was just like old times...hilarious!
May 2009At the end of May we took a trip to Scottsdale, AZ!
and hiked up camelback mountain...
what. was. I. thinking???
Oh, well, at least we made it to the top! Barely...
But mostly we just relaxed at the spa!
June 2009
what. was. I. thinking???
Oh, well, at least we made it to the top! Barely...
But mostly we just relaxed at the spa!
June 2009
Some of our very closest friends came to visit! We always have a wonderful time with them and laughed more than we had in a very long time!
Rhyan at Riverfront Park
Spending time with Beaumont
Adorable Abbey
Rhyan with her good buddy, Ben!
Rhyan at Riverfront Park
Spending time with Beaumont
Adorable Abbey
Rhyan with her good buddy, Ben!
The whole clan...Ben, Steph, Rhyan, Jody, Phil, Abbey!
Later that month, the whole fam took a trip to an indoor waterpark!
Me and my niece, Anna
July 2009
For the 4th of July we went kayaking/canoeing with my dad and brother...
Later that month, the whole fam took a trip to an indoor waterpark!
Me and my niece, Anna
Adorable smiles from my niece, Lyla
We spent a weekend at the lake with Jack and Norma
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We spent a weekend at the lake with Jack and Norma
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September 2009
For our 8th wedding anniversary we spent a week in Seattle!!!
Here we are with our friends Dave and Crystal at Bumbershoot! We saw Katy Perry, All American Rejects, Sheryl Crow, Michael Franti & Spearhead, Jason Mraz...and my favorite band of the trip...
THE BLACK EYED PEAS!
A little over 1 week later (last weekend) we made the drive back to Seattle for a Mariners game with my dad and little brother, Zack!
So, all in all we have made the most of 2009 thus far...what's next, you ask? Finally...a long awaited consultation with an infertility specialist! Stay tuned...
Here we are with our friends Dave and Crystal at Bumbershoot! We saw Katy Perry, All American Rejects, Sheryl Crow, Michael Franti & Spearhead, Jason Mraz...and my favorite band of the trip...
THE BLACK EYED PEAS!
A little over 1 week later (last weekend) we made the drive back to Seattle for a Mariners game with my dad and little brother, Zack!
So, all in all we have made the most of 2009 thus far...what's next, you ask? Finally...a long awaited consultation with an infertility specialist! Stay tuned...
I have read through your journey. I am sorry for your lost. I am also on the road of infertility. I know how much it hurts and how hard it is. I have been trying for seven years. I am coming close to the end of this journey. There is only so much one can take. Making a plan is good, looking to the future is good. Just keep your head up and keep moving forward. I am constantly finding the good things in my life and enjoying them.
ReplyDeleteBJ - Thank you for your comment! The only comfort in the situation we are in is knowing that we are not alone. I read a few of the entries from your blog and I am so sorry for the painful journey you have endured...like you, I am learning that the people who really love you, although they may not understand your pain, will allow you to grive and live life in its new form, without passing judgement...life will never be the same as we all struggle to find a new normal. Please know that I am thinking of and praying for you! ~ Stephanie
ReplyDeleteSteph, I am similar in wanting to always have a plan. I too enjoy it. And it can be very frusterating to feel out of control. I am so proud of you for continuing forward, to find answers.
ReplyDeleteOur Heavenly Father also has a plan for us, and is mindful of us. I wanted to share one of my favorite scriptures with you,
Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding." I have often found comfort in this. Especially when I have more questions than answers and feel completely helpless.
You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers :)Good luck with your upcoming events!
On a different note: Good job on climbing Camelback Mountain! You guys are amazing. Chad and I attempted it, only made it half way. Chad could have gone on, but the afternoon heat got to me :) If we ever get another chance, we'll start early in the morning!!